Well, I was going to write about being double minded, but I am having trouble keeping other thoughts out of my mind. It is not a new problem as I am very undisciplined and rather like being that way.
I have been called for jury duty and it brings mixed thoughts to my mind. Perhaps that is why I have been thinking about being double minded.
Most everyone hates to be called to jury duty. Where I live it is a two week ordeal and it could be much longer if one has to serve on a high profile case.
Personally I do not want to give two weeks of my life to trying to determine if someone is guilty of a crime. That is a selfish and self-centered attitude and I am quite aware of it, but it is also true of me, and to try to hide it would be somewhat less than honest. So to be fair I have included my weakness.
I also considered just not showing up. I could get away with it as no shows (in my area) are not punished in any way, but 1 Peter 2:13&14 (NIV) says, “Submit yourselves for the Lord’s sake to every authority instituted among men: whether to the king, as the supreme authority, or to governors, who are sent by him to punish those who do wrong and to commend those who do right.” And it is the authorities that requested that I serve.
I also hear (in my mind) “whoever can be trusted with little can also be trusted with much” and I think ‘If I cannot be trusted to do God’s will in such a small thing, should God trust me with big things’?
Everyone, including me, is guilty of some crime. Maybe not the crime that the legal system has chosen to haul the accused before a court of law, but still guilty of crime and it might be a greater crime than the one specified by the court against the accused, so at first thought it seems as though it should not bother me if I think someone guilty of a sin and declare so as a juror.
Well, it does bother me. That is what Satan does. He stands before God and declares me guilty of sins: and I am guilty. If it is wrong, and it is, to stand before God and reveal the sins of someone else, then is it right for me to stand before men and declare that someone else is guilty of a sin?
I am quite sure that you are having the same thoughts as I am and that is if everyone thought the same as I, then all of the guilty would go free, and if all of the guilty were freed then no one would be safe.
Think about it: everyone, that is free, is guilty of sin, and no one really is safe in this world.
Then there is the second thing that bothers me. As a juror I am supposed to find the accused guilty beyond a reasonable doubt. Because I was not there at the time the crime was committed there is always some doubt as to whether or not the person is guilty. How far does one go before they can declare doubt reasonable or not reasonable?
I spent much of my life repairing something that has failed in some way. Many times I have been sure, in my mind that a certain part or adjustment would repair the unit and solve the problem, but it did not.
I have been blessed in that if I was wrong, no one died, and no one’s life was ruined by my mistake. I got a second chance to repair the item and along with it I learned a bit more about my profession. By the way, just encase you are wondering, I did not charge anyone for my mistakes: I counted them as money spent for education. Just saying.
I don’t think that I can serve on a jury and obey the second royal law, which is do to others as I would want them to do to me.
Even if I were guilty of the sin that I was accused of, I would not want to receive the punishment that I deserved. How could I sentence someone else to receive their just punishment, when I would not want the same to happen to me, and still obey the second royal law?
I am supposed to be as much like Jesus as I can be. Jesus does not stand before our Father and declare anyone guilty of sin; even though all four, Father, Son, Holy Spirit and the accused know the truth of the matter. Knowing this, could I?
I have determined to report for service, but I am quite sure when I state that I cannot vote someone guilty, even if I think they are, I will not serve.
I doubt if you can change my mind as this is not a snap decision, but you are welcome to try.