I do not usually write about myself, but I have reached a point in my quest for understanding that I believe it is necessary to explain how I reached this point.
When I was very young my mother sent me to church every Sunday. I only had to attend what we called Sunday school. I did not stay for the regular church service, because it was not required by my parents. They did not attend, because my father was not a believer and he wanted my mother to be home, to prepare his breakfast. So, I was taught some understanding of the Bible.
When I reached an age that I could rebel and stop attending Sunday school I did.
Much later in life I began to wonder if there really was a God and I started to listen to sermons on the radio while I was driving. There was a radio station that actually read from the Bible, but it stopped, probably because there was no money in/for it.
One program invited anyone that listened to attend the regular church service and I thought it a good idea, so I began to attend.
It seemed as though every sermon was directed to me. God was using the preacher to reach me and I came to the conclusion that I should be baptized.
After I was baptized the sermons no longer seemed directed specifically at me. I know now that it was because I had been given the Holy Spirit to teach me all things and I no longer need a man to teach me. (John 2:27) Actually the preacher did not teach me anything, but convinced me that I needed to repent and be baptized.
Then a very enthusiastic prophecy teacher came to the church that I was attending and I attended every one of his sermons. If I remember correctly he gave a sermon everyday for four days and at the end of the last one he could barely speak. His enthusiasm was contagious. I had not even considered the Old Testament and the teacher’s words and understanding amazed me.
This started me on my quest to understand everything about God and His Word that I could. I told my Father that I wanted to know everything and asked Him to teach me everything. At that time I did not know that He had already given me The Teacher to do just that!
I have head my brothers indicate and even say they do not want to know everything! To that I can only say, “What a complete waste of the gift of the Holy Spirit.” If God did not want us to know everything, He would not have given us a Teacher to teach us everything.
Now, hold on to your hats, because I am about to say something that you have never heard before and if you are not patient you will stop listing and you may not understand what I am about to say.
When I was only a man, before I was baptized, my beginnings could be traced back to Adam and from Adam to dust. Now, dust is only a nice way of saying dirt. But when I was baptized God planted His Seed in me. It was only a Seed and unless it grows it will not be the mature Seed that He wants.
When a seed is planted it should be watered and I was born of the water and the Spirit. (John 3:5&6)
Any seed needs good ground in order to mature and even bad ground can become good if it is fertilized. The Word of God is the only nutrient that a Spiritual plant will accept and I have continued to ingest the Word and the Spirit that lives in me and is part of me has grown. At the same time the dirt that was me has been replaced with the Spirit; the Spirit has increased and the dirt has decreased.
One day, in the near future, my Father is going to harvest me. He is going to lift me up and brush away the remaining dirt from me and I will be the spirit that He has wanted since the time He made me. I will be like Jesus (1Peter 2:4&5).
The first time I was born, I was born a human being and I was called a man. The second time I was born I was born of the Spirit. (John 4:24) If I was called a man, because I was born from man, then what would you call me if I was born from God? Would you call me a god? God does call me a god (Psalms 82 & John 10:34&35). The Word of God has come to me and I am a god.
That is not to say there is more than one God. The one God is in me and that makes me a child of the one God and therefore a god, but it does not make me God.
Daniel asked, “My lord, what will the outcome of all this be?” and he was told, “Go your way, Daniel, because the words are closed up and sealed until the time of the end.”
This is the time of the end and the Word is no longer sealed. Now we can know all things. That is if you believe that you can. After all you were given the Holy Spirit to teach you all things, so believe that you can and search all things out.